Archive for October, 2004


October 31st, 2004 at 10:41 am

In my post about sex/gender and the creation of forms, there was quite a bit of stuff happening in the comments, so I decided to address one commenter’s concerns in the longer form of a post. I’ll just quote him in entirety so I don’t butcher his meaning with a paraphrase: Look – I am […]

Fears divided, not conquered

October 29th, 2004 at 12:00 pm

Three years ago, I was lucky to find a job (while still in college even) that combined my academic and prurient interests. This meant that I didn’t have to separate the professional and the personal, and the whole thing in a way was a political act of outness. Two years later, when that job melted […]

Check the box

October 28th, 2004 at 10:39 pm

I spent this afternoon at a college health fair as a representative of the AIDS service org I volunteer for. It was your pretty basic scenario, with young men strutting up and taking the large condoms, while the young women picked up the regular size. I got a really interesting question from a woman who […]

Screen time

October 24th, 2004 at 11:51 pm

The very first time I saw myself naked, fucking, and jiggling in a moving image, I was freaked out. I thought – shit, do I really look like that, a wide expanse of whiteness that awkwardly folds into itself? And almost simultaneously, I recognized that while I love to see nice fleshy women in porn, […]

“Alice in Footland” premiere on Saturday

October 23rd, 2004 at 9:25 am

Oh, look, another plug. This one’s for CineKink, and more specifically, for “Alice in Footland,” the film which I’ve been ruthlessly promoting of late and which Dirck and I have very minor roles in. The film premieres at 5 p.m. this Saturday at Anthology Film Archives, on 2nd Street and 2nd Avenue here in NYC’s […]


October 22nd, 2004 at 12:41 am

Today/yesterday (what day is it anyway), I spent something like 12 hours thinking about sex. And none of that fleeting, I’m-in-a-meeting-but-images-of-cocks-are-dancing-through-my-head type stuff. No, this was sex-thinking with serious consideration given to dirty matters. A morning and early afternoon on the phone with press folks, giving my two cents for the editing of “Alice,” dealing […]

Name that moaner

October 21st, 2004 at 3:02 pm

Today we’re putting finishing touches on “Alice in Footland,” which means that the sound has to be all synched up. I’m sitting in my corner of the office with Sativa Verte (who plays Alice), and we’re trying to do our work, but the moans are distracting. So we’ve got a game going – Name That […]


October 21st, 2004 at 12:22 pm

I’ve been thinking about the connotations of this word a lot recently, purchase spurned by me thinking about and applying to become a model on an alternaporn site, story and at the same time discussing alternative porn and alternative sexuality with the lovely Sativa Verte, who is the star of “Alice in Footland” and is […]

Decisions and debauchery

October 19th, 2004 at 3:26 pm

Last night was a whirl of too much bourbon. Oh, the bourbon. I haven’t been this hung over in quite some time. As I leave my evening class, I fall in step with a very awesome butch woman from said class, and I mention that I have some resources I could share with her that […]

My daily SAR

October 18th, 2004 at 9:19 am

Over the last three years of being involved in sex in many different professional capacities, I’ve seen a hell damn lot of porn. Some of it has been great, some of it has been terrible, most has been totally unmemorable and some has made me cock my head to side and think, now how about […]