Archive for December, 2004

Beauty myth, schmeauty myth

December 30th, 2004 at 2:45 pm

Yesterday I spent spent part of the afternoon naked with Gracie, in front of a camera. I know, my life is soooo tough. I am giving the modeling thing an earnest go, but I’m not always sure I have “what it takes.” By this I mean, I’m not sure I have the capacity to freak […]

And today’s moral dilemma is…

December 29th, 2004 at 1:00 pm

Condoms in porn. As anyone who has been reading along for more than half a second knows, I’m an advocate of safer sex. By safer sex, I don’t just mean slap some latex over some parts and fuck away. In my conceptualization of it, safer sex is more complex. To really rock the safer sex, […]

Photos by Josh Rubin, taken December 2004

December 28th, 2004 at 7:54 pm

“I have something to tell you”

December 28th, 2004 at 7:52 pm

There was just no other way to begin the conversation. Until this afternoon, I’ve kept James (my ex, who I only just now am naming) in the dark about what I half-jokingly refer to as “my secret life.” James and I met when we were both 17, on a retreat for the “gifted and talented” […]

Flying solo

December 22nd, 2004 at 11:39 pm

Last night when I knocked on Jefferson’s door at quarter of seven, what is ed he yelled “Just a minute!” and I heard a girl giggling. When he opened the door I caught my first glimpse of Scarlet – running towards the bedroom, pilule presumably to fetch her pants, as she wasn’t wearing any. This, […]

A short stay in fucksville

December 21st, 2004 at 2:30 pm

Whenever I meet up with Seth, its in the middle of the day. Our phone conversations are quick and no-nonsense; we decide on a time and one of our two regular bars. Its never hard to find him at the bar because he’s the punk guy with the knitted cap pulled down tight over his […]


December 18th, 2004 at 1:46 pm

Last night, the Sex Workers Outreach Project hosted a national Day of Rememberance, which the New York Times has covered in a fairly even handed article, which quotes whores and former whores who support the legalization of prostitution and those that don’t. It also touches on something that I poked at in my post “sex […]

Adventures in spa land

December 16th, 2004 at 4:39 pm

So I see how it is – I ask politely for readers to introduce themselves, sildenafil and I get a smattering of replies. Show my set of 36Ds, and everyone’s falling over themselves to say hello. Mmmm hmmm. This morning, I spent some time at a spa here in Brooklyn, getting a wax and a […]

Where is my mind?*

December 16th, 2004 at 1:56 am

I can almost breathe a sigh of relief, because my supercumbersome papers are out of the way, which is all kinds of good. But I must confess, I have an embarassing story to tell. It is one that proves that I’m becoming a batty intellectual who can’t accomplish basic tasks (like finding things and dressing […]


December 13th, 2004 at 11:38 am

I’ve always had a scapegoat, viagra 60mg one person in my life who with no rational cause, I loathe. Usually my scapegoats are people who I don’t know at all or who are tangentially involved in my life, people who I can hate with seething, blinding passion but without really hurting anyone. This person is […]