The ever-lovely and gracious Violet Blue named me to her Top Ten Sexiest Geeks of 2006 list.
And that’s a lift I needed so badly this week: I’m really feeling like so much of the work I’m doing is teetering on the edge between totally awesome and total disaster. If things go according to plan (checks arrive on time, technology operates properly, people meet their deadlines) all is well, but if things are a little off (they are), I have days like yesterday, where I spend most of my day sobbing and trying to figure out what the fuck I’m supposed to do.
Its these times when I think about that line from 1984, “freedom is slavery.” This isn’t a hole as deep as the one I hit in September, and I have (some) confidence that things can turn around really quickly and be awesome, but… damn, sometimes freelancing doesn’t feel free at all.
I feel more focused today and ready to shut out all the crummy stuff and hone in on this book o’mine, due in a week and a half. Exhausting, but doable. I am determined, I am a top ten sexiest geek, and I’m gonna make this shit happen. And then I’ll sort out the other stuff later, even though that might qualify as a bad idea, I just can’t. Maybe I should ask my tech support department or my assistant to take care of some stuff. Oh wait. It’s just me. Eep.